Discernment
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I have wanted to blog for awhile but I have been hesitant (once again) due to emotions. I used to blog all of the time on Myspace and felt comfortable with expressing my thoughts. For many reasons, I feel that I have to watch what I write on Facebook/Blogger. I don't like it.
I have been thinking about people lately. Motives, actions, reactions, loyalty, expectations, honesty and character. I have thought about people currently in my life and those who were only a part of my life for a reason or season. Before I was saved (born again/new creation in Christ), I never trusted a person right away. It took me a very long time to trust...if at all. When I gave my life to the Lord, I think I started trusting to easily...especially other Christians. I am currently struggling with discernment. I used to think I had great discernment but now I think since I didn't trust anyone my discernment "appeared" to be right on. As a Christian, my mind has become clouded and it is more difficult for me to discern "Christians." It is easy to know when something is not right with those who are not saved. It is difficult (for me) to discern the works of the enemy when someone proclaims to live the life as a man or woman of God.
It is no secret that I had a very rough year in 2008 with my ex husband. Many witnessed the work of the enemy so I generally don't have to elaborate. I am not in the bad-mouthing business ...I state the facts and move on...so I will leave it there. I do bring him up only to say that I was "clouded" in my discernment due to the "man of God and christian mask." My ex is only one of several recent examples of clouded discernment when it comes to Christians.
I have also recently lost a "Christian" friend due to pride. Not pride on my side...all who know me know that I am not prideful. I will try to keep things peaceful as much as possible even to the point of apologizing/kissing up when I am not at fault. Are temper tantrums really necessary? I guess being a cancer survivor I look at things as life or death. If I am lying on my death bed....is this really going to matter? If not, I will do everything possible to make amends. Bottom line, I cannot change the hearts of man...only God can. Do people really desire to change?
I am certainly not blogging to slam christians because I AM ONE. LOL! I am a lover of Jesus. Some even call me a Jesus freak...I'm just sayin....ha ha ha. I am blogging for insight. Godly insight. I have thought the safest way to discern is to remove the "christian label" off of people that I meet so I am not clouded. I truly don't know. I don't ever want to be one of those people who turn away due to being hurt by the "church." I don't mean Destiny Worship Center. I mean my "brothers and sisters in Christ."
There are moments where I catch myself closing up. The problem with closing up is that I am to passionate about Jesus. I love Him and want to please Him so that means I love others. It is hard to love others when you have a wall closing yourself inside.
I guess the only thing to do is realize that people are still people despite where they are or where they are not with God. Nobody is perfect. The enemy will try to cause division and sometimes he will accomplish. At the end of the day (I sound like Pastor), all we can do is love on each other and pray for one another.
I have been thinking about people lately. Motives, actions, reactions, loyalty, expectations, honesty and character. I have thought about people currently in my life and those who were only a part of my life for a reason or season. Before I was saved (born again/new creation in Christ), I never trusted a person right away. It took me a very long time to trust...if at all. When I gave my life to the Lord, I think I started trusting to easily...especially other Christians. I am currently struggling with discernment. I used to think I had great discernment but now I think since I didn't trust anyone my discernment "appeared" to be right on. As a Christian, my mind has become clouded and it is more difficult for me to discern "Christians." It is easy to know when something is not right with those who are not saved. It is difficult (for me) to discern the works of the enemy when someone proclaims to live the life as a man or woman of God.
It is no secret that I had a very rough year in 2008 with my ex husband. Many witnessed the work of the enemy so I generally don't have to elaborate. I am not in the bad-mouthing business ...I state the facts and move on...so I will leave it there. I do bring him up only to say that I was "clouded" in my discernment due to the "man of God and christian mask." My ex is only one of several recent examples of clouded discernment when it comes to Christians.
I have also recently lost a "Christian" friend due to pride. Not pride on my side...all who know me know that I am not prideful. I will try to keep things peaceful as much as possible even to the point of apologizing/kissing up when I am not at fault. Are temper tantrums really necessary? I guess being a cancer survivor I look at things as life or death. If I am lying on my death bed....is this really going to matter? If not, I will do everything possible to make amends. Bottom line, I cannot change the hearts of man...only God can. Do people really desire to change?
I am certainly not blogging to slam christians because I AM ONE. LOL! I am a lover of Jesus. Some even call me a Jesus freak...I'm just sayin....ha ha ha. I am blogging for insight. Godly insight. I have thought the safest way to discern is to remove the "christian label" off of people that I meet so I am not clouded. I truly don't know. I don't ever want to be one of those people who turn away due to being hurt by the "church." I don't mean Destiny Worship Center. I mean my "brothers and sisters in Christ."
There are moments where I catch myself closing up. The problem with closing up is that I am to passionate about Jesus. I love Him and want to please Him so that means I love others. It is hard to love others when you have a wall closing yourself inside.
I guess the only thing to do is realize that people are still people despite where they are or where they are not with God. Nobody is perfect. The enemy will try to cause division and sometimes he will accomplish. At the end of the day (I sound like Pastor), all we can do is love on each other and pray for one another.