Random
5:08 PM Posted In My Walk with God Edit This
My "random" blogs are generally all over the place and filled more with emotions instead of knowledge. I am sure this one will be the same. I have been feeling many different emotions these past several months. I would like to think most of them are positive.
I am officially divorced as of October 27th, 2009. The big divorce day was/is bittersweet. It was something that had to happen yet divorce is not always the easiest choice to make regardless of how terrible the marriage is at the time. I knew the moment I filed for divorce that I had been released from Jason by the Lord. I continually receive confirmation by the still existing lifestyle and rollercoaster that I observe from a distance. Thank You, Christ Jesus, for releasing me and giving me the courage to walk away and love myself enough to make those tough decisions.
I am also starting to come to the realization that men and women (singles) truly don't know how to be "just friends." It is a confusing situation that leaves people hurt, bitter and closed off no matter how much is expressed in the beginning of the "expectations" and reality of the friendship. One can state that they are loving you with the heart of God and that no expectations are in that friendship but I have found that is not true. When the reality hits that the friendship will not turn into romance...actions or lack of actions become apparent and truth is revealed. I have found that I am more comfortable surrounding myself around women of God for that one on one friendship. I will continue to allow God to guide my steps and if/when it ever changes then I will know without a doubt.
I have been taking a class at Destiny Worship Center taught byt our Pastor. Basically, it is a leadership class that is helping us find our "calling" and place in the church. I think everybody knows that I LOVE MY CHURCH and I want to be used in mighty ways. I don't care if that means I am scrubbing toliets. I LOVE MY CHURCH and more importantly, I LOVE SERVING GOD! I know that my calling is spreading the gospel. I LOVE talking about Jesus especially to those who do not know the Lord. I don't know what the future holds but I know that I am called to witness.
Last, I just had another check up and I am cancer free! Praise Jesus, my Healer and Prince of Peace!!! I don't know why I become anxious when it comes time to have my check up. It is not a lack of faith as some might think. I guess it takes "being there" to know what I am experiencing. Nonetheless, I received confirmation from my WONDERFUL Dr. D (hehe...some of you know what I am talking about) and I feel that heaviness fall off of my shoulders.
So, I guess that sums it up for now. I still would love to blog more openly like I used to do on Myspace but I will let the Lord lead my fingers.
I am officially divorced as of October 27th, 2009. The big divorce day was/is bittersweet. It was something that had to happen yet divorce is not always the easiest choice to make regardless of how terrible the marriage is at the time. I knew the moment I filed for divorce that I had been released from Jason by the Lord. I continually receive confirmation by the still existing lifestyle and rollercoaster that I observe from a distance. Thank You, Christ Jesus, for releasing me and giving me the courage to walk away and love myself enough to make those tough decisions.
I am also starting to come to the realization that men and women (singles) truly don't know how to be "just friends." It is a confusing situation that leaves people hurt, bitter and closed off no matter how much is expressed in the beginning of the "expectations" and reality of the friendship. One can state that they are loving you with the heart of God and that no expectations are in that friendship but I have found that is not true. When the reality hits that the friendship will not turn into romance...actions or lack of actions become apparent and truth is revealed. I have found that I am more comfortable surrounding myself around women of God for that one on one friendship. I will continue to allow God to guide my steps and if/when it ever changes then I will know without a doubt.
I have been taking a class at Destiny Worship Center taught byt our Pastor. Basically, it is a leadership class that is helping us find our "calling" and place in the church. I think everybody knows that I LOVE MY CHURCH and I want to be used in mighty ways. I don't care if that means I am scrubbing toliets. I LOVE MY CHURCH and more importantly, I LOVE SERVING GOD! I know that my calling is spreading the gospel. I LOVE talking about Jesus especially to those who do not know the Lord. I don't know what the future holds but I know that I am called to witness.
Last, I just had another check up and I am cancer free! Praise Jesus, my Healer and Prince of Peace!!! I don't know why I become anxious when it comes time to have my check up. It is not a lack of faith as some might think. I guess it takes "being there" to know what I am experiencing. Nonetheless, I received confirmation from my WONDERFUL Dr. D (hehe...some of you know what I am talking about) and I feel that heaviness fall off of my shoulders.
So, I guess that sums it up for now. I still would love to blog more openly like I used to do on Myspace but I will let the Lord lead my fingers.